Craft Spells - Still Left With Me

Nearing the end of my adolescence has made me even more emotional than I could have ever imagined. Nearing the beginning of my real young adult life is more intense than I could have ever imagined. But listening to new music like this and thinking about someone you love makes everything okay.

Hi hello is this thing on

Wow I can't believe I have the audacity to have a Real Blog and I don't even write in it every day with self-ware commentary on stuff. Blogging seems simple enough, but when you can't even do that right, then what does the future hold for someone like me? Whatever, I've never wanted to be a role model.

I went through all of my posts on this thing and was honestly surprised at how much I've grown. I'm currently 19, but you might as well say I'm 20 because ever since I turned 19 all thought was "I turn 20 next year" so now I turn 20 in like six months and now I'm like "okay this is kind of weird." Dumb tangent, but anyway, I deleted whatever I disagree with now. Or whatever left me with that unique feeling of repulsion and discomfort, the kind you experience when you look at how stupid and tacky you were in middle school.

I also half-heartedly redesigned this to better suit my needs. At least it looks a little better now. It'll be perfect eventually but now I've wasted enough time here and not enough time reading for business communications. PSA of the day: Never take online classes. If you're anything like me (which as a product of this generation, you probably are) it'll be really hard to care and not get distracted on social networking. I mean this.

You're pretty good looking (for a girl)

I just took the Self-Esteem Test off Psychology Today and I thought it was pretty intense. I've never thought about evaluating my self-esteem, I'm mostly just hyper-aware of its affects on my feelings. Currently, I am hyper-aware of grammar, and how little of it I know. I've got a grammar exam coming up that I need to pass just to sign up for one class.

Since I last updated my Bloggue I have officially graduated into Young Adult territory. I have a job, I'm declaring my major in the spring, I abhor traffic, and I eat my emotions. Since I last updated, I've also purchased seasons one and two of Tim and Eric Awesome Show, Great Job! and plan on getting the rest as soon as possible. I also saw Captain America and it has been the most disappointing of the Pre-Avenger movies so far. Fall semester starts in roughly two weeks, and I will finally begin taking classes in my major. This life ain't so bad!

Terrible At Blogging

Sometimes I kind of regret starting this blog because I was going to try to be interesting with it, but I prefer my "personal" blogging so much more. Mostly I just really wanted to use "Karina Tell Us" because it is so perfect for a blog. But yeah, writing for an audience is cool in itself but I mean, I can't imagine my ramblings engaging a lot of people.

All I want is to spark some thought or give my skewed perception of things. I also don't have one thing I'd talk about forever (although recently I am definitely all about nails and e-window shopping) and none of it is particularly important. I uh... I just don't know. I don't want to write about my day or anything. Just stuff. I guess I'll keep doing that... whenever I decide to log on.

Okay so I watched Bridesmaids and I thought it was funny but I felt like it was a very long Kirsten Wiig sketch on Saturday Night Live. However, nabbing Jon Hamm as her jerk love-interest was definitely amazing because it's The Hamm and he is everything I'd want in a man. Its portrayal of women was great because it was realistic and although it dealt with weddings (not my favorite movie plot, truthfully) it was sad and heart warmin' at the right parts. OH YEAH and fucking Tim Heidecker was Maya Rudolph's fiance/husband in the movie which was a pleasant surprise and also hilarious. I think he had one line in the entire movie, but just his presence and facial expressions had me cackling. Yeah, cackling.

Innernettes

Do you ever, like, get so bored on the internet that you don't know which social networking website to check? That happens to me on a semi-regular basis and it's kind of embarrassing. When I realize as I am sitting alone in my room that I've checked Twitter about four times in the last forty minutes for a few seconds of entertainment. Twitter's boring as hell if you're not following Kanye West or something, you know? Life.

The Color Purple

In case you don't know: Today people are wearing purple to honor and respect the recent suicides of homosexual teenagers, and to raise awareness against discrimination, hate, and bullying directed at the LGBT (lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender) community.

It's been a while since I've last written in this thing. I guess it might say a lot if I am actually taking time out of my extremely-busy-life to make a serious-blog-post about something.Today, I am contributing to the growing pool of Internet posts defending this purple movement.

I'm not holding it against you if you were completely out of the loop and were genuinely baffled when you saw that everyone decided to wear purple today. But I am kind of holding it against you if you have decided to express this GREAT DISDAIN that many people seem to feel towards this.

I know that in the same way I feel that you Negative Nancy's should not be expressing so much (exaggerated?) opposition to this, you can say that purple-wearers shouldn't be all up in your face about wearing purple. Who cares about only seven juvenile suicides when people commit suicide everyday? There are so many other much more important global matters! It's so dumb, really dumb, for real, to suddenly care about the LGBT community!

Except it is not. What's wrong with raising awareness? Everybody knows about breast cancer, but people still wear pink to "raise awareness" for a disease that affects thousands of people. I don't think everyone is aware of the "social disease" if you will, that is discrimination and hate towards the LGBT community. This can be said for every other group of people that is discriminated against, of course. The fact of the matter is that this is current and these suicides were all publicized within the same time frame and this has struck many people as tragic.

According to GLAAD:

Spirit Day honors the teenagers who had taken their own lives in recent weeks. But just as importantly, it's also a way to show the hundreds of thousands of LGBT youth who face the same pressures and bullying, that there is a vast community of people who support them.

Hypothetical Quote From A Hater: "Man, that is super threatening to my life. This is a stupid way of showing awareness. I am so mad everyone is wearing purple. No one cares about any global issues EVER but now they care about this?"

I suppose the way I am going about this is "super immature." I am mocking people's opinions and all that. But this is what it comes down to, and this is all you have to read: Discrimination and bullying is awful, and this fact has been brought to light due to the suicides. People have banded together to show support. If you are arguing that there are much more important things to raise awareness and be active about, you should be comforted by the fact that some people actually care about something.

Of course there are many other things that are "worthy" of activism, but that is all relevant to your perception and what is important to you. Right now, people care about this. Apathy only perpetuates more hate. If you have no interest in this, being a "player hater" doesn't help anyone. Collectively wearing purple indirectly does.

Important Fun Fact: I hadn't even considered wearing purple until yesterday. So there you have it, my self-imporant two cents. I hope you all continue to be irritated or inspired by the amount of purple surrounding you today!

Today's post was brought to you by excessive use of italics.

Napolean Dynamite Dance Original

Napoleon Dynamite. A classic example of movie-turned-Hot-Topic-chic. But really, it kind of deserves it. I feel like it's the Pulp Fiction of Low-Budget Indie Cult Classics. Where it's popular enough that most people have heard of it, and it's actually pretty good. Good enough that people want to buy shit related to this film. So yeah, basically when this movie came out I pined for a "Vote For Pedro" t-shirt and I needlessly quoted, "Tina, you fat lard, come and get some dinner."

tl;dr AH, what it is to be young.